Post by Kate on Sept 19, 2005 0:50:17 GMT -5
i keep thinking about my trip to israel. i was given sin before me and was judged. i was not allowed into israel. i guess i failed their test. i have been given many tests in my life by God. i thank Him He let me pass them. i had to go 40 days without a shower once. my boss was joking with me about 30 days into it and got too close. i guess he knew i passed. i was told not to commit adultery in a dream and went 12 years without dating. i see why. i was told to quit my job. i am unemployed. if you have read my web page you know what God told me to tell israel before i went. i went march 14. i was forced to return that day. i had round trip tickets for 3 months later they did not care. they owe me for that trip. their government told me before i left i needed nothing to go there. i was welcomed. i was not. am i a terrorist? i think not. did i scare them saying God would give us a sign and they could tell me what it was when i got there. that was the weekend we would see Gods sign. we did. they saw truth. i was not allowed into israel. not only was i not allowed i was told i could not come into the country ever. i am banished from there forever. am i worried? that scares me like the man rubbing on me throughout the flight to israel. like a parasite they are always there. i have seen it all my life. there are always men around wanting to take from everyone and leave hate. rape and murder to fulfill their own desires. i see. i know. nothing has changed. i doubt anything ever will. the world needs help and not just where the hurricane hit. some palaces are filthy. i have been tested. the tests men give me mean nothing. i wanted to hide in the bathroom but sin needs to be seen. it was clear on that plane. do not cover your head and hide from the truth. sitting between 2 israelis telling them both i was a prophet from God and yet neither questioned. one made scents and apparently has a wonderful family he loves dearly. he was looking for God and yet did not question. the other ran the streets looking for women. he rubbed on me all during the night even though he knew i did not like that. sin is always in front of our eyes. i prayed for him. what hurt most was seeing him rise in the morning put on a shawl and start praying. that hurt. i hope i passed Gods test that night even if i did not pass their test. many have heard my words yet i see no one on here telling their stories of what i have told them. it is sad. i do not just feel alone i am alone. that is sad. we are all being tested. who will pass? i know how hard it is to pass Gods tests. i have gone through many. i thank God i was able to pass the ones i have had to go through. there are more to come though. and not just for me. if you have the good life do not think it will last. we will follow Gods plans not ours. peace, kate